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The Spirit of life.

So a lot has changed for us over the last few months. We have picked up our family and moved back home to where I grew up. We have moved in with my parents and we have only part time work as of the moment. We are broke and poor and in a financial crisis. However, I feel complete and new and fresh, like life is beginning again and newness and hope lay ahead from here. As I reflect on these feelings I find them odd and weird considering what tis occurring in my life at the moment.

All of these things lead me to a question. What gives life? I know what does not give life, at least for me. Life does not come from busyness like soccer games, shopping, eating out, watching movies, discussing church drama, ranting over day to day things. Life does not come from isolation or “keeping your family busy and intact”. Life is not in the schedule of the average American; getup, eat, shower, work, home, eat, tv, sleep… then start again. On the weekends we can add in church attendance, but don’t ask me to talk to people in a transparent way or spend time with anyone afterwords, we are just “too tired, and busy”.

Busy with what? A schedule? Agendas? Tasks? This is not life and is in no way nourishing to the spirit. Soccer games and Bible classes with no relationships is not life giving. Life happens when we stop and listen to people, when we look in the eyes of the people we pass and really SEE them. Life happens when we tell people what is happening in our heads and heart. Life happens when we engage with people in meaningful, invested community. We spent a year in a place where people lived but they did not engage in “life-giving” activities. Sure they were busy, but when you looked in their eyes there was NO life at all. They wanted to experience the sacred and yet they would not stop the rat race to do it. We almost got sucked in to the vortex. We almost bought the lie, and then our marriage started falling apart. It sucked the life out of our family.

So here we are in my parents home and we are experiencing life. At every turn we meet people who invest in us and we in them. They make plans to engage in community together. we eat together and laugh and watch some TV but talk through the whole thing. We expose our injuries and hurts and we do it and there is LIFE. Life that is Spirit. The Spirit of God that is with us. It uses each of us to intervene for one another and care for each other and SEE the needs in people around us. The Spirit life that makes it worth living. The kingdom of God here now and it is so good. I can’t quite articulate it, but it is messy and freeing and like standing on the edge of a cliff arms spread and jumping. LIFE is good even when the world around me tells me I should be in the pit. I am full and hopeful, these feelings are odd, I haven’t experienced them in a long time, but boy do they give me LIFE>

Who are we… really?

Oh boy! So, today on Facebook one of my friends made a comment about how she hated the way the Tea-partiers were behaving and I am with her 100% it is pretty tacky. But her comment was not what struck me. What really struck me was how certain people, who claim faith in God then began to “stick up” for the people who were behaving so badly and how quickly they were fighting over their rights as an American and how they then called the others out as if they weren’t lovers of Jesus because they were of one political party or the other. Now I am pretty non-political, if you are defining political as being Republican or Democrat. I am neither and as of this moment will not associate with either party and their behaviors. I love Jesus and I follow him. My politics are subversive and active, in that I don’t sit around and debate the issues in the comfort of my home, but I get off my butt and actually do something about all the stuff happening in our world. I regularly write in to the senators on the issue that seem to be opposite of Jesus and his kingdom, I work with the homeless in our community and I think about every dime I spend and what Cooperation it is supporting and what kind of ethics those companies function by. I still wake up daily and realize there is SOOO much more I could, and should be doing, I am in no way perfect and I feel like I could be doing 3x as much if I could just get over myself and my need for comfort.

So here is the jest of what I am getting at today. Who are we… really, at the heart. Are we American, or are we Christians, or Muslim, or Buddhist? Who are we at the heart? I claim Jesus as my Savior you may claim someone else, irregardless of who you claim as your God answer this one question. Do you buy, and I mean like wholeheartedly, full throttle, no backing down, would go to your death for others, kind of buy, what your religion or spiritual life calls you to? Would you give up “your American rights” or your comfort, for the call of your spiritual life? Would you be willing to let someone else have what is rightfully yours, because you care more deeply for them than you do your rights? Would you give up your health insurance to give someone with a terminal illness a chance to medical care, or would you be willing to go without heat so that the old lady next door wouldn’t freeze in her home? So who are you… really? If you chose the American way then you have your answer, that is who you are. Is that the answer that you wanted and if not then what are you willing to do about it? If that is the answer you wanted then quit claiming Christ as your savior and just admit that it is America who has your allegiance.

How far would you be willing to go for your God when it comes to loving others? From what I have studied about all the world religions this is what we are ALL called to by each of our Gods. Selflessness. Humility. Irrational Love. Limitless giving of self. We really have no “rights” if we really buy into this thing we say we are worshipping. I am becoming more stunned at the behavior of those who claim a belief in something bigger. We sure don’t live like we buy all that. Because we look and act no different from the people we are supposed to be “saving”. What are we saving them from? Are we saving them from anything that we are doing or anything that we need our own saving from. It is pretty sick and makes my stomach turn that the Christian culture is so busy fighting politics that there is very little being done to really impact and help people.

I have a solution for the healthcare issue. How about we all give up our own insurance to pay for those that really need care. How about we pay money from our own pockets to get a free clinic for the people in our community. How about we quit buying tons of clothes or putting our kids in every sport possible and we use that money to pay the medical bills of our neighbor or the homeless guy on the corner. How about telling the USA that since they are too busy padding their wallets that we, the followers of God will handle this one. Because I guarantee there would be enough for all if we sold one of our three cars or gave up our Prada bag or allowed our children to have to learn to play basketball in the front yard instead of in summer camp or on the best sports team. How about we get busy showing our children how to be like Jesus by actually living like he did and forget about sports scholarships or family vacation. None of these things are innately bad, but if the supersede the care we will give others then we are missing the point and we see where our allegiance lies.

Every time I open my Bible and read about my God and my Jesus I am stuck right in the heart with how selfish I am, and I am convicted to give up something new each time. How can I really claim to be a follower of Jesus if I get more defensive about my “rights” than I am about doing what Jesus calls me to.I am more passionate about my national anthem than I am about caring for the suffering around me or about the fact that over 1/2 the global population has no clean water to drink? Really… The Jesus who gave living water would surely give drinking water as well. Can we ever really reach someone’s heart if there tongue is literally so dry that they cannot even think about anything but getting some water to drink. We really cannot continue to agree to disagree, or hate the sin and love the sinner. That is just a way of saying that I am going to “secretly not like you”. Come on folks lets be real and lets quit just looking out for ourselves and our children. We have to start caring and loving deeply for everyone else more than ourselves. Do you guys hear me? Are you understanding all this? Am I crazy? I hope and pray I am not alone. Forget about healthcare or politics or worship style and let’s get off our butts and open our wallets and schedule to give our time, money, life, love, hearts, rights, and home to the care of others. The kingdom is here and it is in those of us who are willing to be it, the kingdom of God now. Are you in or are you out. The line is drawn in the sand. Will you come over or are you okay with being a “half ass”. (pardon my language but it is the only fitting term)? If it is okay with you then fine, but at least I know where we stand and that I have some work to do. Me, well I am a Christ follower daily trying, failing, and living to the best of my ability so that others may live more freely. I buy in and a stand on the Jesus side of the line. You can have your national anthem and your political party I will take my Jesus.

In the words of Derek Webb,

” My first allegiance is NOT to the flag, the country, or a man. My first allegiance is not to democracy or blood, it’s to a king and a kingdom.”

So yesterday I made a huge pot of vegetable soup and some cornbread. We got about 10 inches of snow here and I was needing something warm. Anyhow this is the best pot I have made all winter so I will write down the recipe for you all and for myself.

Veggie Soup

Ingredients: 5 new potatotes, 4 carrots, 4 stalks of celery, one white or yellow onion, 1 bag of frozen green beans, 5 cloves of garlic, 2 -16oz. boxes of veggie broth, one can organic diced tomatoes, salt and pepper to taste (you can also make your own with left over clips of potato, carrot, celery, onion, tomatoes, anything that is good cooked veggie wise boil for several hours then drained: freeze your trimmings from your meals for a week and then cook to use for veggie broth).

This is “souper” easy and very tasty. Put all the ingredients in pot with veggie broth, add in garlic last then stir crank up the heat and cook on medium for 2 hours or so. Serve with cornbread and if you like cheese on top. It is good with or without the cheese so do as you like. Enjoy!

So this post is rather random today, but I feel the need to type and binge my brain. I have just finished a book called Socrates Cafe. If you have not read it I would suggest picking it up. I have always enjoyed reading and typically stick in the realm of theology and religion or green living stuff, but due to some searching and questioning I picked up this book. So here is what I pulled from it and what I will share for now.

In our culture, we want to have all things figured out, the answers, the “truth”, our ideas behind the correct way, or whatever you want to call it… we want to “be right”. And I am all for being right about things. Like I really hope that the Dr is right when they diagnose me with something and then begin treatment, or I want to be “right” regarding whether it is my turn to go at a traffic light. But what I am talking about are things regarding politic, religious life, social issues, and ethics. Now I am NOT saying there is no “right” and wrong. There is certainly that, but I could not begin to give you any of those, and here is why. I am currently in a moment in my life when I am asking “why” to all the things I was told or am being told just are. When I watch the news and I am told that we need to send more people to Iraq or Afghanistan, my first thought is “why”. What is the purpose? Who is this benefitting? Is this a good idea?

You could replace this question with any other “accepted” idea or thought that is out there being circulated. We could ask this about a commercial that tells me I need to buy some type of car or skin care product. I ask why. And let me tell it has brought on an amazing and intimidating flood of information that is contrary, or differing, even frightening, and most often completely factual evidence to the opposite idea. Now this may seem like, “well duh” to the rest of you, but I have felt that we are currently living in a culture that is NOT encouraging people to ask questions.

Let me break it down, right now my spouse is working with teens, and every time we talk about something to do with the “assumed understanding of certain topics” all that the kids are interested in is “proving” that they are right or that anything to the contrary is wrong. They cannot even try to toy with other perspectives and ideas. This, for me at least, is scary. We are raising a generation of kids who think they have all figured out and who are not even interested in talking about alternatives.

But here is the real meat, I don’t think it is just our teens and kids who function this way. I think it is all of us. We all function like we have the answers, and we will make one up or give you an educated guess (that sounds more like fact than guess when said) on just about any topic. So, this is what started me on asking, why. The last few weeks when I get on Facebook I see people just reaming one another on some mutual friends status, and getting into all out verbal warfare over some differing opinion. Often times the two that get into don’t even know one another personally. Then they will proceed to take character blows at one another regarding their opinion and ideas, and call the other “not human” or something to that level. These people have no idea what the other person does or does not do in their free time. For all they know they could be bashing a Mother Theresa”, but bash they do and in very rude and hateful ways. It is disgusting. These people act as if they know a person by knowing one opinion that person holds.

I must say it has been freeing to admit that I have no clue on most topics. It has been freeing to also speak up when I do have clue, like on topics that I read a lot about or happen to have first hand experience on, and within this it has been freeing to let my ideas and “mind made up perspectives” to shift when information comes that is more accurate than what I knew. In fact, I love asking why. It makes me except how totally and completely inadequate I am in many areas of my life, and it allows me to disagree or feel differently about some issues or topics without feeling defensive or even like I have to convince someone otherwise. And it has also forced me to get educated and find more information. So now when someone makes some comment that I find off I can run it through the information I have and then check it further and know whether I should dismiss or listen to their thoughts.

I guess that is really all I have on this, but I would love to hear your thoughts. What makes us so afraid to ask why? What are we really afraid of? Because as I see, and this is an opinion, the more questions I ask the more I find that I really have more in common with other people. I find commonalities and agreements with just about every person I come in contact with and find more to bring me into closer community with them than things that divide. The only thing standing in the way is whether or not they can set their need to be “right” to the side in order to be in community with me (someone who admits that I do not have it all figured out). I will leave you with this, in the book I mentioned the author talks about how Socrates used to say some thing like the following, and I think it is right on so let it sink in. ” When I hear about some wise person I go and I ask them if they think they are wise. If they answer yes I leave knowing that I have at least found one person that I am wiser than, because at least I know that I am not wise and would never claim to be.” That seems to be what I am getting at, if you think you have it all figured out or that your answer on any topic is absolutely correct, immovable, then I think we have nothing to talk about. Of this I am certain. ;) At least maybe. Let me know what you think and do you feel the same?

So this one I served on New Years Eve, then is was such a hit with everyone that I made it again. Even my 3-year-old loves this one. Hope you enjoy. Serves 4

Ingredients: Black-eyed peas (canned, dried, or frozen), 1/2 red bell pepper, 2 green onions, 4 cloves of garlic, fresh ground black pepper and salt to taste, 1 tsp. chili powder, 1/2 tsp. paprika, 1/2 cup water, 1 cup broccoli, 1 cup carrots, brown rice to serve four (I always add 1/2 TBS of butter or olive oil, and salt). Chop all veggies.

Make your brown rice 45-1 hr before you are ready to start cooking and if you are using dry beans they should have cooked through the day with just a little garlic salt.

In a skillet add 2 TBS olive oil or grape-seed oil. Add in peppers, garlic, carrots and sauté until their color gets brighter about 3- 5 minutes, then add in green onion and black-eyed peas get them warm and cooking, then add your spices paprika, chili powder, salt and pepper, 1/2 cup of water, add in broccoli and let simmer on low for 3-5 minutes. Then serve over brown rice with your favorite side dish. We had a big salad and it was delicious.

Okay so here is one of my recent creations. It was AMAZING and even better day 2. Enjoy! I can’t find the picture so you will have to imagine.

Ingredients:
whole wheat cous-cous, miso, fresh or frozen vegetables of your choice (I used peas, lima beans, broccoli, carrots, onions, garlic, celery), two eggs, garlic salt, yellow curry, tamari sauce.

Start by making your cous-cous serving for 4 (follow instructions on box) in a separate pan, once it is boiling add in 1 TBS of miso and stir. Cover and let sit until veggies are ready.

Use about 2TBS of olive oil, add onions, carrots, garlic, and celery and cook until tender. Then add in remaining veggies and cover, stirring until bright green. Add in tamari about 3 TBS, I just kinda of eye it here. You want the veggies to be coated in the sauce. Then add in your cous-cous and curry to taste. Stir mixture until it is all covered in that beautiful yellow color. If the mixture seems a little dry feel free to add in more tamari. Now push the mixture over a little so you can see the bottom of the pan and crack the eggs in the pan, scramble quickly here, then start to stir it into mixture. Let it cook together and stir until the egg is no longer yolky. Then add garlic salt to taste and serve.

Variations: I thought that next time I make this I am going to add fresh pineapple and new potato chunks, Yummy. You can also leave the eggs out if you are Vegan. If you want to add chicken or pork cook it with the veggies at the beginning and add in some tamari at that point for flavor. Hope you enjoy!

So for the first few weeks/ months of blogging I have a feeling this maybe a place of some bitterness and frustration, for this I apologize. I have some tension that has built up in me that needs an outlet, and hopefully by blogging I may find other mommies and people who can relate and may have words of comfort or encouragement.

So for today I am thinking about fun and food. I have a 3 almost 4 year old and I am finding it difficult to offer him entertaining things to do and play. He gets so bored during the week. I am somewhat of a homebody, I like to go out for walks and such, but not the sort who likes to go stroll the mall. For one, I find that this only stirs something in me that makes me feel discontent with my “out of style” stuff. It makes me feel like buying new stuff and having the latest and greatest is the most important thing. So that said it just seems against my personal goals of sustainability and green living to go stroll the mall. To top all that off, we live in Northern Oklahoma and in the winter it is just plain freezing cold 5 out of 7 days of the week. So I need some ideas of fun creative things to do for myself and my wee one that will fill that hole of boredom and almost “cabin fever depression”. To add I also hope that some of these things can help me to teach global, social , and spiritual elements to my son. So any ideas.

We live in a very small town that doesn’t really offer places to go, other than a park, and where we have to drive to be able to grocery shop at any place other than Walmart. I can barely set foot into that place, because it stands in opposition to all things that represent local and social responsibility. So we drive to Tulsa to shop every few weeks, I live for these days, because we see people who care about the same stuff we do and it reminds us that we are not “weirdos” as many in our hometown seem to think. I know the driving part is not the best, but eating healthy is really important so for now this will have to be.

So as for the food part I have some pictures I will upload later today of some recent meals I have made, and if you want you can make some of them at home. They are pretty quick, as that is my preferred way of cooking. They are vegetarian, but you could add meat if you like.

Quickly a side note on why we are vegetarian. There are really several reasons, first it makes us feel better when we eat vegetarian, we have been doing it since May 2009. Before that we had started limiting our meat intake. If every “American would eat one locally produced, organic, vegetarian meal each week we would save one million barrels of oil a week.” Eliminating meat also saves you on your grocery bill every week. Buying produce and fresh fruits and vegetables is cheaper by approximately $.50 a pound as compared to frozen, canned and processed foods. I have done the math on this one when the ladies at my Co-op where we used to live shared the facts. That alone has made shopping organic much more affordable for us.

So if any of the above interests you I will share a few random things that we do to cut down on our waste and to be more healthy.

* We always carry our own mugs in the car when we are out or traveling, that way if we get a coffee shop craving we can grab a drink without having to use a throw away cup. It also helps to keep your drink warm longer, which is awesome for us because we suck on our coffee like all day. FYI there are many things I am giving up, but coffee is not one of them. Also when you go to a local coffee shop ask if they have a fair-trade or organic blend, if not let them know you want to be a regular and hope they will choose to bring in one.

* When I can choose I always buy food products that are fair trade, free range, and organic. The items that normally offer a choice are the following; sugar, chocolate, coffee, eggs, meats, flours, and many hot cereals. So check your labels. Many of these companies also have eco-methods and tell you about that as well. I just look at my labels and always check for companies that are contributing to some effort or fit into the above categories, that way I am “voting” with my money. Letting people know what is important to me. If your religious and think tithing is important, you can also think of the extra money spent as a form of tithing, since you are paying more for efforts that take care of people and planet.

* I keep a spoon in the car so I can stir coffee and drinks without having to throw out a stir stick.

* eat lunches raw or cold, it cuts down on energy. For every cold meal you will save $1 in electricity.

* Skip the paper napkins and use cloth, you can reuse without washing for a week or so, like a towel. Then wash at the end of the week. We hang ours over the back of our chair at the table that way they don’t get mixed up.

* If you drink bottled water or filtered use a Nalgene or reusable bottle, make sure it is BPA free.

* the no brainer: buy or make reusable grocery bags, and use them. Keep a few in the car for those unexpected grocery trips. In this town people glare at me when I hand them over. It is really funny. Or if I just tell them I will carry my two small products out in my hands, no bag necessary. I it makes me giggle sometimes.

* have people over for dinner and allow your methods and practices of living to show, it always makes for interesting conversation and makes people think about adopting some simple changes themselves. Most people who have eaten in our home end up adopting something from us. Not saying anything about us, but it makes them think.

* When you do have people over make something that is exciting to eat so they see that eating healthy and vegetarian or sustainable can be very rewarding and tasty.

* Give thanks for your food. Talk to your kids about all the people who have made your meal possible. Not just the cook, but the farmers, and the workers that brought the food to you, and talk about how your family supports farmers and people who are making fair wages. If you pray this can be apart of that if not just practices regularly giving thanks with your family.

Okay so that should do for now. I will add more in a day or two if I think of anything. I will put down a recipe today for all you folks who might be interested. Hope you all have a wonderful day. I began all these things in baby steps, and we have adopted new things as we get one thing down. I know you also can do it. Be sure and leave some suggestions about the fun stuff. Thanks for reading.

Some of the info above came from New day Revolution a great “toilet” reading book. I hope to add some links and tags and good reads in a few days.

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